To date to not to date THAT is the question.

So N and I have been broken up for a while. Yep. It sucks ass but I can see she is not going to take me back. I have talked to her a few times since then and we are friendly, but I guess she fell out of love because, she seems to be really ok with all this and wants to move on and become my friend, where I want to move back and stay her lover.

So how long do I wait? How long is it until I can open my self up to all the people that are asking me out on dates? (heh all 0 of them) I mean I know that I am not ready for anything serious, but shit another weekend alone at my house I might have to go crazy.

And I have decided that I am not the one night stand type of guy. So that is out. Too much possibility of the person thinking that there is more there than there actually is. And yes that happens a lot even if I did not want a one night stand. Well used to happen. If you remember i was married when I was 20, Divorced at 25 Started dating my Ex, then got married for 10 years, then after that was with N. So for the last 17 years of my life I have been in 3 long term relationships.

I am really not in the mood for a long term Relationship yet. Ok That is a lie. I want one. But I want the one that I had. That is not going to come back. So. Yes I do still want one. But just don't want to start one with someone new.

So that leaves me at Random Dating. Which is my weakness anyway. I have the worst first dates. Ask N. Ours sucked. :) But I begged her for a second chance and we had a really good year and a half after that.  Also Money, first dates cost money. I don't have that right now. And Bri. I have one weekend off every 2 weeks. So I have to work around that schedule. But that is easy I guess.

Funny I read back over this. And I think it truly answers it self. No I am not ready to date. I might hate being alone. But no. I am not ready to date. And Damn that hurts.

dont know if I should be happy about that.

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Federal Income Tax Form 1040 (Excel 5.0 Spreadsheet) - Download

Every Year I do my own taxes. And for the past 5 I use a free xls that Gleen Reeves does.

http://home.mchsi.com/~taxcalculator/download.htm

I have to say. I love this man. :) If you have to use a 1040 then I recomend this 100%. And I think this year I am able to donate to him. :)  

Sweet I got a new Watch!

Only paid 1.20 for it on Ebay and I got it last night.  Whoot.

Cheap, but works. If it breaks then I am going to just buy 5 or 6 more. :)

2nd Place

Well Bri's team ended in 2nd place. 5-1 The game started out good, 1 to 1 and then the team gave up. But hey 2nd place still rocks. :) Here is the trophey.

Not bad for her 3rd season. Note that the first 2 seasons were 1st place.

Life Update

Well I am copying a few hundred gig's from one server to another so I have some time to kill.

Time for a update!!! A lot of life changes here on the V front. Most bad and/or stupid. So if you want to be bored then please feel free to use that little read more. If you don't, then this post is an I AM STILL HERE post. :)

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